Growing up, I was bombarded with the message that I was supposed to do what I was told…
Bow to authority.
From watching my mother stay in a relationship long past its expiration date.
From watching her complain endlessly about him without seemingly doing anything about it.
From living in a home with a tyrannical father. That oppressive energy left its mark.
I never received the required love and validation to become a healthy adult. Bad role models surrounded me. There are so many reasons I could explain how I became this way. I could spend all day just itemizing all of that.
Long story short, I was raised to become a doormat.
I Call This Version of Myself The Chauffeur
This was because I was reduced to becoming my ex-wife’s chauffeur for many years. I had to become very used to a certain kind of oppression to feel at home in it for so many years.
It’s so funny. After I broke up with her, my ex acted like she tried to salvage our relationship. That’s certainly not what I saw. I saw a pers…
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