You Love Being Messy. Here's Why.
You're Addicted to Chaos. And I Can Prove It.
Dear Permission to be Powerful Reader,
Some people swear they want peace.
But their actions?
Tell a different story.
They’re always balls deep in some bullshit.
If it’s not a nasty breakup…
It’s a public argument.
If it’s not gossip…
It’s some new drama they swear they didn’t ask for.
If it’s not one toxic situation…
There’s another one waiting in line.
Their relationships are always unstable.
Here today, gone tomorrow.
Their life follows a clear pattern.
They’re always in crisis mode.
And if they’re really toxic…
They don’t just lose friends—they cycle through them.
Burning bridges one by one.
And yet.. they always say the same thing:
“I don’t know why this keeps happening to me.”
But you’re full of shit.
Here’s the truth:
You’re not unlucky.
You’re not cursed.
You’re not a victim of bad timing.
After enough years of chaos…
It’s time for you to hear the real truth about yourself:
You’re the common denominator.
👉 You entertain the drama.
👉 You respond to the bait.
👉 You surround yourself with chaotic people.
👉 You ignore calm and sane people.
And worst of all?
You think it’s normal.
Your focus is likely on toxic people who excite you.
While you ignore all of the healthy people you meet.
There’s nothing worse than making a fool of yourself in public because of some drama.
You see it everywhere.
But will you see it in yourself?
You’ll see a pattern if you’re being honest.
Human beings think they’re so evolved…
But we barely notice that we’re living Groundhog day, every day…
Repeating like a broken record.
Maybe you grew up around dysfunction.
Maybe peace feels boring to you.
Maybe deep down, you’re afraid of what happens when the noise stops.
You think life is supposed to be a constant rollercoaster.
That relationships have to be explosive.
That friendships must have betrayals.
That life should be full of fights, gossip, and chaos.
Because that’s all you know.
Chaos is comfortable.
But let me tell you something: Peace is real.
And if your life is always messy?
You’re the one keeping it that way.
You keep feeding the chaos.
Ignoring structure.
Resisting order.
Staying distracted so you never have to sit with yourself.
But let me tell you something:
Peace is not boring.
Stability is not suffocating.
Order is not oppression.
You don’t need another fresh start.
You need to stop clinging to the mess.
Because until you do?
Chaos will always find you.
But you don’t have to let it win
Until next time,
Anton,
Dancer, Writer, Buddhist.
