I spent Christmas all alone. No friends. No family. Honestly, I’m sincerely thrilled about it.
Dear Permission to be Powerful Reader,
I’ve never, in my whole life, done 100% me for Christmas.
It’s very illuminating what kind of person I am at my core. Just this alone is worth trying sometimes. I think.
I always get sad around the holidays.
At this version of Mike Tyson, I realized I thought it was because I felt lonely around the holidays. It’s actually because every holiday season, I abandon myself.
I spend time with people who I don’t like. Who don’t value me? Who can’t see me?
Who don’t deserve me?
They reinforce the idea that I have no worth. I will do my private meditation marathon, which involves lots of running and writing.
I’m going full Chris McCandless.
I’m doing me 100%.
I’m going to shine more brightly than ever.
Just ONE year ago, I was still so heavily programmed to prioritize others over myself that I spent THOUSANDS to go and spend almost a month among a bunch of people I d…
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